MIDNIGHT POETRY – “In Disbelief”

In disbelief

What I ate yesterday was still good tomorrow
When I slept I had my eyes open wide
Going out is very much an inside job
Getting clarity is a messy business
Gaining weight at a loss of appetite
Relationships with no connections.

The sole of my feet are sore of defeat
Walking my talk on a spinning round ball
Frightened of velocity and gravitation
That might pull me back to womb.

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Feel free to add your piece to this, in the comment box, if you’re so inclined.

Night night from the land of platypus.

THE FUTURE IS AS BLEAK AS WE SEE IT

Rather than talking about the state of the planet and detailed foretelling of the global future, let me offer a little different view.

You might have heard the saying ‘What you focus on expands‘, respectively ‘Where attention goes energy flows‘ or something on a similar note.

And with that comes my question: What “thought type” represents your daily mindset the most?

A) a worrier
You are always in the heightened state of expecting something to go wrong. Postulating about all the possible scenarios that will ‘go bad’.

B) oldnews advocate
You listens to all the news and feel overwhelmed by all the terrible and gloomy world out there, where everyone is against everyone and ‘they’ are controlling the planet with whatever possible.

C) an optimist
You are the person who always seems to be in a good mood, not too worried by much and looking at all with a positive attitude of hope and wondrous expectation and trust.

Which one is the ‘right’ one for you? Or rather, would you prefer to be in a different frame of mind than you find yourself be in now? Do you recon it is possible to change your mind?

Are we able to unsee the seen?

In this past 10 years I had the opportunity to reach into the depth of my mind and psyche. The stuff that I saw there was not exactly pretty. I was looking around the mental concepts of my life and started to find and observe all kinds of rigid structures, frameworks, and beliefs. With time, (and after therapy and trainings of all kinds), I learned to be more aware and observant of what goes on inside of the mind. Sometimes it’s quite in the very moment of the situation at hand, but thanks to the ability to reflect upon thoughts and behaviors, also in the hindsight.

Above is to demonstrate that there is a certain process of adventure and discovery, when we learn to uncover our own shortcomings and rigid thoughts.

The world out there reflects upon what is inside of us. Another statement says:  ‘We can’t see outside what is not inside of us.’

So if there are ongoing internal turmoils within us, they are then reflected upon our daily reality (thoughts, feelings, behaviors) and affect all that is happening with us. That also affects our focus.

As you might have previously learned about our RAS (Reticular Activating System), our brain tends to filter out all ‘unnecessary’ information and outside input, based on our concept of reality and focus.

Whether we see the future as bleak or not, is just our perception and focus.

When we learn to direct our focus towards other attention seeking choices, we might actually feel better about life in general, about ourselves and about the world around us.

What is important to realize is that we learned to perceive life a certain way. Through societal indoctrination, through parental influence and other social conditioning while we were children. Now, as grown ups we often still carry this illusion made just from ‘hot air’ in our mind.

Check for yourself. Is your thinking aligned to your sense of being? Or is there work to be done by sifting through the old and bringing in new, more open mind?

Now, let me finish by saying this. I don’t mean to prescribe the one and only way of being. There is not one way of thinking that will suit us all. We are all at different stages through our life paths and therefore might need different mindsets from each other.

The above said, I find that for me personally the following works magic.

Cultivating an optimistic mindset; getting rid off or switching off all negative and dramatic sounding devices and apps; being surrounded by nature and silence as often as possible…

Simple things like these can help us re-balance our unhealthy thinking and bring more peace into our life. And by finding more balance in our own life we are better equipped to help others.

The unrealness of the prefabricated learned construct of reality is bursting out of seams.

Creating more open minded space of expansion. Yay!

Exciting times ahead.

DOES BELIEVING OUR BELIEFS SERVE US?

There are beliefs that guide our day to day activities and then there are those that only surface here and there in conversation with other people.
What is of interest to me is just how much attachment we hold to our strong beliefs.

As one saying nicely puts it:  “Beliefs are just thoughts we have been thinking over and over”.
With that in mind, I want to share my own observations and beliefs about beliefs 😉

Being strong minded, respectively hold strong beliefs about certain things in life can cause friction with others, if they are not in the same frame of mind or if we don’t give in.

When we speak with others, we might share some observations, information or our personal opinions. And there lies the hidden obstacle. When our beliefs clash with the opposite sides of the perspective, we have a choice.

Do we pursue the path of being ‘right’ (in our own perspective) and having the upper hand about the topic of discussion, or do we melt into the path of least resistance and surrender our ego?

What do YOU most likely do in such a case?

I’m coming from a strong mind driven background. Still to this day I find myself often immersed into a conversation where I am opposing the view of the other person, no matter what the topic. Just to open up new perspectives, new pathways, open mind doors. To enrich and to see the brighter side of situations.

Yet, in the process of such conversation I find myself questioning my own intention. Sometimes the other side also has a very strong viewpoint about the topic at hand and we seem to get nowhere in that discussion.

Once I feel the egotistic need to explain further what I mean to say, or what I am trying to get across to the other side (of course for their own benefit lol) I catch myself and choose to either continue in the process or to withdraw from it and leave it without a resolved ending.

What is the purpose of beliefs anyway? Do they serve us in the name of peace and love? Or conflict and misunderstanding? Do they serve their true purpose? Or are they more hindering us than helping us?

I would love to hear your thoughts on this. Please share in the comments below this short article.

Closed mouth and open hearted.

ONCE THERE IS SILENCE WORDS WILL COME

I must have been guided to attend this special ‘writers workshop’ today. Without knowing what to expect I silently joined a group of other aspiring writers. After all I always wrote just without preparation or any instruction. Never did I know what is taught at writers workshops. Today I was to find out for myself.

The first subtle feeling that I won’t know what to write was overcome by excitement and flow as soon as we were given the first instructions and my pen hit the paper. After hour and half of intermittent writing and then reading it out loud for others in the group to hear, I went away feeling uplifted and encouraged by my progress.

Never before I wrote impromptu and read it out loud to a group of strangers. Well, there is always opportunity to learn something new and challenge our current comfort zone feelings.

Now, you might not think much of it, but for me it was a day of small breakthroughs.

These may seem insignificant wins to you, yet they mean a lot to me. Not only I went there on my own initiative and by myself, drove the car to the other side of town and found a parking spot on a street in a parallel parking space (which I never do on my own). I also found out I could easily find something to write to each given exercise.

They were a bit harder than if one just writes what comes to mind. We were given instructions and restrictions, to make it more interesting and challenging.

So to give you a taste of what I wrote, here is one 7 min piece (that’s how long we had) that we were instructed to write, with some words restrictions.
This came out of me on paper 🙂

It could be called: “WHAT HAPPENS AFTER YOU MEDITATE”

“What happens when it’s quiet in the mind is the most amazing of situations.
The mind sort of dissolves into the never never land and
With each thought disappearing quietness screams so loudly
It takes over the whole space
That was previously filled with chatter and fear.

There is now only nothingness in the fullness of the empty space.
Given that the heart is still beating, one achieves perfect state of bliss and well-being.
Mind no longer contains itself and expands into the outer space.
The world changes as a reflection of this experience.
Nothing creates more space for love and connection.”

Do you feel good after reading it? I certainly hope so, as I did when I reread it. 🙂
The outcome of the workshop was achieved!

I surely feel more keen for more writing workshops and also inspired for more to write.
Wait, there is more coming soon…

PS. If you have any personal experience with workshop for writers, or the above text inspired something within you, I would love to hear it in the comments.

Words from silence…